if you are what you eat then i'm doomed

wow, 235, those were the days. and they will come again!!! having quickly re-read the last posting from may i realize that was a good idea, so i'll try it again: started the day at 8:00 with a 12 oz mtn dew & an atkins bar; 4 pieces of california roll for lunch around 11:30, and an egg; an apple was in there sometime, i think after the sushi; another egg around 4:30, and another apple around 7:30/8-ish. now i'm off to snack on approved junk food. i defrosted some ground beef, which i will hopefully cook tomorrow. i've got hummus & melbas, a couple cans of tuna, more eggs, and some frozen chicken still left at home, so there's no reason to fret about food for the week, i just need to make it.

it's 10:00 and i've been sitting in this office doing nothing since 4:30. what is wrong with me?! i say that without too much panic or stress, though. it's not that i feel i should be doing other important things (although i should), it's that i could be home watching movies and eating healthy junk food. and yet, here i sit, in a pissy mood, ready to argue with everyone who talks to me. and i had a good day, too. i'm *having* a good day. i don't know why looking at online catalogs got me so heated up, especially since i'm doing pretty good with my new year's resolutions to eat well. maybe it's because i'm hungry. actually that's the best reason i can think of. ok, i'm going to stand up, gather my things, walk down the stairs, go to lowe's, buy some low-carb junk food, go home, eat, and watch movies. i don't have class until 5:00 tomorrow, so it's like a free day. ha ha, yeah right, i've already got tons of work. but it's not overpowering me yet, so i'm going to just enjoy what i've got. another resolution is to be still more, reflect, "be", and that's going well too. i've had several psuedo-psychic moments in the past few days, it's cool to be at that place again. as bitchy as i feel, life is pretty good. actually, pms may be a part of this. i'm definitely due sooner or later, so that's probably what this is. LIFE IS GOOD.